I love Iris.....

This weekend I'm with Iris again. She actually called me to remind me that I had promised to bring her home today. She dialed my no. on her own and had been calling me like every 15 mins to make sure I'm going to fetch her. Recently so many bad things happen to me. I'm trying to get a hold on myself. I want to forget all unhappy things. My life doesn't go smoothly and I accept it coz this is all part of life. This year is really not my year. Nevertheless, looking at my baby just makes me forget everything. Listening to her carefree laughter and looking at her naive actions make me want to go back to being a child again, not having to worry about anything at all.

How lovely she is......

Will I be able to smile like that again?

I love her.....

Dear Iris......

Iris called me yesterday and she was crying very badly. She said she was beaten by my mum. I asked her if she had been naughty again and indeed, she is up to her mischievous self again. I learned that she had spoil my sister's stuff. She kept asking me to take her to my place but of course I couldn't. How could I? I need to work the next day and who is going to take care of her? I am in such a dilemma. I wanted to take her home but I couldn't. I'm tied down by job and currently I'm on course too. I need to work and attend night classes. I hardly had time to sleep nowadays so how could I spend quality time with her? I haven't seen her for quite some time already and I miss her to the core. I had promised to take her home this weekend to spend time with her. I really feel so bad for neglecting her nowadays. I just hope to get through my difficult time and when I am successful one day, I will take her back and make it up to her. I will give her a good life and shower her with care and love which my mum never gave to me. I want to be a better mum than my mother.